The Unexplainable

Sorry,  this is not going to be a funny, smart ass, raunchy post like most of them. I've had a lot of things go on in the last month that are unexplainable.  Coincidences? I don't think so. Fate? I believe so.
Let me just go waaaaaaaaaaay back.... about 27 years.
When I was about 13, I met Darren. He was beautiful!!! Brown eyes, brown hair, freckles...he was MY Darren! I would walk to the opposite end of the school just to get a quick look at him.  He played baseball and was the cutest boy I had ever seen in my life.  We didn't talk. We didn't hang around the same people. We never really knew each other.  Then..... he asked me to the dance. OK, since he was the first crush that I'd ever had, it's a given that I had never kissed a boy, let alone talked to one that made my knees shake! So, unfortunately, I declined and that pretty much ended any talking that we did. Though, I did continue to "pull a Rose", as he likes to say.  Watch "Two and a Half Men," you'll understand. I would go to his baseball games just to see him and watch him play, take the longest route to classes just to have a Darren sighting, whatever it took to just SEE him. This crush went on throughout high school and honestly, until this day.  I'd always think about him through the years..... just wondering where he was, what he looked like, was he married.... that kind of thing.  I looked for him online a few times but never found him. Plus, what if I did find him? What would I have done, said, "remember me, the chick that blew you off in 7th grade?" Right... like he would ever remember me.
So, about a month ago, I was in Savannah, GA on a long weekend with my now, soon to be ex-husband.  This trip was like a last ditch effort to save our marriage.  My STBX, (soon to be ex) had a problem with infidelity..... a LOT!!!  Our marriage was over years ago but I think both of us just continued to let it go to shit so we didn't have to face the end.  Stupid. While I was there, I got a friend request..... from Darren! Talk about shit your pants!!!! I couldn't believe it!! AND, he said that I looked great!!! OK, first off, those are not words I've heard in a very, very long time. Second, they were coming from MY Darren!!! I can't explain it but when I saw that friend request, the effort that I had put into saving my marriage changed directions.  Why? I wasn't looking for a man to replace my husband. I wasn't looking for an out. My knees started shaking again!  It was my Darren and that's all it took.  I knew from that day, that my marriage was officially over.

I have seen Darren a few times since we started talking. The first time I saw him, I thought I was in heaven! My Darren!!! My knees were knocking then, too! It was like we picked up where we left off. Which, we didn't leave off from anywhere, so, explain that!!  From the first night we talked on the phone, it hasn't ended. We talk constantly. We wake up and have coffee together in the morning via phone, on breaks, in the bubble tub, in bed (get your minds out of the gutter!)! I get him..... and he gets me. We have so much in common. We laugh constantly and he is the SOLE reason for this big ass grin on my face 24/7!! He's made me feel like I've never felt before. He makes me feel special and wanted. He's sweet, honest, sincere, hard working..... he's the best!!! I can be ME around him and he doesn't judge me.  He is my Darren and I wouldn't want him any other way!! I think we both have had to walk down a crappy path just to get here, where we are now!! I miss him when he's not on the phone.... I miss him when I have to leave him... I've got it BAAAAAD!!!! And, I'm pretty sure he does, too! How many men, who are TRUE NY Yankees fans, miss a playoff game, actually, two playoff games, to talk on the phone? And refuse to hang up to go watch it? Or miss their Sunday afternoon ritual of watching the Cowboys play?? If that isn't a sign, honey, I don't know what is.  I told you he's the best!!!!  FATE!!! It's got to be!!!

When I went to my nieces baby shower a few weekends ago  I was on the plane sitting next to two ladies who saw me writing. Just so happened that both of them are published authors. And when they heard OUR story, they demanded that I write a book about this because this is a story that you only read about in books.  Fiction books. This kind of stuff  rarely happens in real life.  They were going crazy over this and offered to help me in anyway possible. When I was getting off the plane, they said, "see you on the NY time bestseller list, Kerri!" LOL!! Coincidence that we were on the plane together? I think not. Coincidence that Darren came into the picture at this time in my life? I think not. Destiny? Fate? Ummmm, yeah!!! I believe this was supposed to happen NOW as opposed to back in 7th grade when we were both young and silly.  My best friend from high school, Kim, found me on face book last year.  She and I hadn't spoken in about 22 years. The day I left GA from going to see Darren for the first time, I called her first and I asked her if she remembered who my first crush in high school was. She said, "yeah, Darren O'Dette, why?"  Then I heard , " awwwwwweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.....it's just meant to be!" She and I are now back in contact, Darren and I are in contact and life is frigin GREAT!!!!! I couldn't have asked for a better man to walk into my life or a better friend to reconnect with!
So, I just wanted to let y'all know why I am so happy all the time now! I wanted to tell you all about MY DARREN and how special and awesome he is!!!! Oh, and take it from me, ANYTHING is possible!!!! You CAN be happy!!! And no giving me shit on writing such a mushy blog!!! I'm happy and I wanted everyone to know it!! I'll resume normal bitching, sarcastic, rude blogging tomorrow!!!

MY DARREN THEN......

Me AND MY DARREN, NOW!!!!